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Dec. 11th, 2015


Trust Movement

"Trust only movement. Life happens at the level of events, not of words. Trust movement."
- Alfred Adler

Dec. 10th, 2015


Just perfect.

Kindness. Really being heard. Being seen for who I am and accepted as perfect *exactly that way*. Compassion. Wisdom. Tenderness. Insight and tremendous empathy. Someone who inspires me. Integrity...that's exactly it. Quiet, loyal, integrity. That sounds just right.


Nov. 20th, 2015


Lots of joy today

May today be full of joy for all of us.

Nov. 19th, 2015


Good advice

"Once we are willing to confront our emotional suffering, we begin
making choices based on attraction instead of aversion---love instead of fear."

This showed up in my email account just after a very quiet but important realization, a shift in how I see and think about things. It's good advice for me, and I see that it will be soothing and peaceful to focus on what I want and what is just right for me instead of operating from fear and grasping onto what doesn't quite fit.

The big question is this: do I trust the universe to make better decisions for me than I can for myself? When I look at myself recently, I've been operating from stress and fear and grasping for a good while now.

I do think that the universe, operating from a place of love, can make better decisions for me than I can coming from a place of fear.

So I guess the advice I've been getting really is the best: relax, open up, become curious. Allow the best thing for you to come forward for you. Have some trust in the benevolence of the world around you.

Let others be who they are, and let me be who I am, too.

I am sure that this will be a lot more peaceful, soothing and probably, a lot more rewarding rhan what I've been doing so far.


Nov. 17th, 2015


Brief encounter

Sometimes you meet someone very briefly, yet get the sense that they are special...a kind and loving presence.

Nov. 5th, 2015


Hello 52

You feel beautiful, and so do I. Peace.

I woke up and snuggled Michael, who kissed me and whispered happy birthday.

Then I played one of my favorite love songs, "Strawberry Letter 23".

Michael is making me a cup of Dandy Blend, and I have a massage scheduled for 10:00. I'm excited to write today, and read some of my students' works, and make something beautiful. I think I'll also play Flower. Angela created a new user account for me on her loaned PlayStation so I can find all the secret green flowers again and bloom them. It's a good way to start a birthday.

Nov. 4th, 2015


Soft, warm, happy

Loving restorative yoga with Tibetan bowls. I've been going every week to Evelyn and Rick's classes and they are yummy.

Rick plays 15-20 bowls and Evelyn directs the class and does some hands-on Reiki. Mmmm. I love it when she nestles a bowl into a chakra and resonates it. So deeply wonderful!

Tonight's class was very lovely.

I am wandering into my 52nd year feeling incredibly loved by a Universe that sends me all kinds of beautiful people to collaborate with and create amazing, wonderful happenings with.

So many new and long-loved people are coming (back) into my life now, as if arranging themselves for some magical upcoming event.

It's a surprise of wonder for me, I imagine, full of amazing things.

And now to sleep in my blanket fort, surrounded by warmth and softness.

Blessed Be.

Nov. 1st, 2015


Halloween 2015

Calavera tonight...

Oct. 31st, 2015

Mas Fuerte

Meditation, healing and mushrooms

This is a time of little seeds, patiently cultivated, beginning to flower.

My healing work and meditation practices are really beginning to pay off in peace of mind and resilience, as I regroup faster, realign myself better after going off track, and solve problems faster and with less resistance.

It looks like my work with magical community is beginning in seed form again, and divination and gut feeling say it will be wonderful.

All this is symbolized for me by a small mini-mushroom farm I bought this summer at Home Depot.

It's a mushroom spore-impregnated block in a cardboard box created by the folks at www.backtotheroots.com. I waited till late summer to water it and get my Oyster mushroom harvest. It grew one patch of beautiful Oyster mushrooms that were so delicious! I harvested them and cooked and ate them with Michael.

Then I read the box, and it said I could get a second harvest if I was patient, so I decided to try. I turned the block over inside the box, scraped the top to stimulate growth, and watered it every day.

And every day.

And every day.

And when I went to Iowa, Michael watered it almost every day.

And I got back and watered it more.

And nothing happened.

And I thought nothing would ever happen, but I watered it daily anyway.

And Michael said he didn't think anything would ever happen, but he didn't stop me.

And today, it has blossomed...with EIGHTEEN new patches of mushrooms!!

Some patches are very, very tiny---too tiny to see unless you peer VERY closely. They will clearly mature at different rates.

That means up to eighteen different delicious mushroom meals.

Oh yes...the payoff is worthwhile.

This Remarkable Month...Wow!

This month my list of overnight guests, all very much loved and wanted, included eight people, three of whom stayed for over 3 days (or more) each, and one who came twice (yay!).

Part of this exciting mix of friends, old and new, unexpectedly ushered in the rebirth of something I thought was completed. It seems to rising in a very new form. I'm watching it with interest, and gently blowing on the seed of fire that appears to be kindling just at the surface. We'll see. I am open to the Universe's intentions for this rebirth.

This month I also drove to the Death Salon and stayed with Jen and Phil (thank you---that was WONDERFUL) and hosted a workshop by a new friend (very fun). I drove 22 hours to Iowa to take care of my sister-in-law (hit by a car), my brother (shoulder injury), and their two kids for a week, then drove back 25 hours last Sunday and Monday and started working almost immediately to catch up on what I had missed.

Now, I'm preparing for a Halloween gathering dear to the hearts of Trent and Michael---my house will be full of teenagers, squee!

I know that I need rest very soon.

This month I turn 52, and I love it---I love aging. That's a surprise. Unexpectedly, I feel strong and happy, on track with my life's mission, surrounded by love that keeps growing and expanding, and excited at what will flower next (and next, and next). But boy, I also need to step back and prioritize self care again right now, or I won't be around for as long as I'd like. And I'd like to be around, and be mobile, flexible, and extremely healthy for a long time.

So I want to live differently this birthday month, and stay home, close my house to visitors, and gently self-correct. I want to put myself on track and focus on creating a great life that's built on good habits, deep rest, tremendous love, and strong, caring boundaries.

SMIB...Blessed Be.

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